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My Baby Love Zya :)

2011-11-09T01:40:00.000-08:00

Yesca Sofia Yzabelle P. Salle

November 6, 2011

3.35 kg/ 7.4lbs

50cm

New Baby :)

2011-08-23T19:33:00.000-07:00

I love my new pink Lenovo Ideapad <3

:)

2011-06-30T21:40:00.000-07:00

A Glimpse :)

2011-06-26T22:56:00.000-07:00

These designs are what I decided to include in my "soon-to-be" shop :)

I just need a photographer (I can actually do that IF I GET A DECENT CAMERA in my hands) Lol

And cute little models :)

Watcha think? Fingers superrr crossed!

Baby Gizmo 15 Strollers in 15 Days Giveaway

2011-06-26T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hey Moms! Go to www.ratedbymom.com and enter day-11-of-the-baby-gizmo-15-strollers-in-15-days-giveaway!

Details here.

Sample Tutu and Headband :)

2011-06-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

Custom made satin-wrapped tutus and hair bows made by moi :)

100% handmade :)

I Heart :)

2011-06-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

:) Soon there's gonna be a variety of colors and different kinds of tutus in this blog.. :) Add up those cutie little flowers and bows.

Mwah!

21 weeks :)

2011-06-21T21:38:00.001-07:00

[soon-to-be] Shopaholic and [soon-to-be] Baby.

2011-06-19T05:38:00.000-07:00

Today is supposed to be Father's Day but given that my baby and I haven't met our "future dad" yet *wink*.. We spent the day as normal as possible, my Mum cooked Dad's favorite dish for lunch and at around 3pm, we went out to shop some groceries and ended up buying a LOT of infant onesies from our favorite "suki" UK supplier..lol. Talk about "branded" and "cheap"! Most of my wardrobe pieces came from UK, hehe.. I remember my office mates asking me where I got the cute floral skirt that I was wearing and I said I bought it at some mall when really, I paid only ten pesos for it. Sssshhh :) No wonder they call me the Ukay Expert..Lols

For a total of Php200.00, I got all these:

I don't know baby's gender yet so I had to pick a set of blues, neutrals and pinks! haha.. anyhow, if it's a boy I can gift the pink set to one of my godchilds and vice-versa :)

But there are some things that cannot be bought at these cheap rates for a newborn baby, and browsing online, I can only drool. If only clicking the "Like" button will get me all these for my baby.. Parang si Lola lang sa commercial ng BayanDSL.. lol :D

like!

And a LOT MOOORE... whoa...

I can imagine how shopaholic I'll become once my babe is here ..but/and of course, I need to earn moolah TWICE as HARD! Whew.. :) Regardless, giving my best to sustain for my child will still be the most glorious pain I can and will ever feel.. I know all Moms do :)

PS.

I need to plan the baby shower! Aaaaaaghhh! Any volunteer? Any sponsors? Friends? :)

5 Things

2011-06-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

FIRST, I lost weight (hallelujah!)

From 174lbs to 149lbs! Which finally put me into the normal range of the BMI Calculator :)

SECOND, I received a wonderful gift - a baby in my tummy :)

THIRD, I got full access to my room again. Yay for comfort!

FOURTH, I finally regained my strength and got fully recovered from being so wimpy and sickly for the past 3months.

and FIFTH, I may have had to leave my job, but at least now I am with my Mum and Dad :)

Downright STUPID.

2011-06-14T03:34:00.000-07:00

Yes. I cannot contain my annoyance over this person. Dude,

"Kahit pa ikaw ang presidente o kahit pa minor de edad ka, WAG MO IDAMAY ANG PANGALAN NG MGA PILIPINO SA KATANGAHAN AT KALOKOHAN MO!"

Purely stupid, yet you were so proud to even UPLOAD it to the world. Yes I am an animal lover, and maybe I don't have the right to judge you. But hey Jerzon Senador, YOU MADE IT PUBLIC, just means you're open for opinions and I strongly hope CONSEQUENCES.

The poor thing after his owner gave him a bath IN A WASHING MACHINE.

and was hung with LOTS of clothes-pins to dry...tsk.

And he was even "proud" of what he did, saying he won't be reprimanded for the animal cruelty that he just did. Well boy, you are in National News! Good job! NOT!

Dapat isampay ka rin eh noh.

What I LOVE the most about YOU...

2011-06-09T23:09:00.000-07:00

The scent that emits in you, that floral and spring smell that brings back memories…

The warmth of your embrace and the softness of your touch…

Your loud morning yells and the smell of your egg omelets…

Your consistent asking if what you’re wearing is pretty or nice…

Your white hairs and when we sit by the front door while I remove each one of them…

That frown on your face whenever I tell you that I’m going out with friends and that I’ll be home late so don’t wait and sleep already… But I always find you asleep in the living room’s sofa when I open the door. You always wait.

Your instant SMS reply of “YES” whenever I send you an “ASK-A-LOAD 5.00” message.

And…

Now that I’m having my own child…

The way you showed your unconditional love and acceptance despite my shortcomings…

The way you look me in the eyes and assure me that you’ll never let me falter regardless my situation…

When you put your palm in my belly for the first time and felt your grandchild kick…

And when you insist that you be called “Mommy” and I, “Mama” whenever I tease you that I’m gonna teach my baby to call you “Wowa”…

Those nights when Dad is away and I still sleep with you in your room…

And up until now, the way you check me in my room in the middle of the night…

There is no one in this world that I look up to and love more than YOU. And when my little one comes out in this world, I know she’ll be alright, because you’re her grandma and from what I read on one grandma’s view, she said “I can never explain the joy I felt when I saw my daughter’s baby for the first time, it was like the day I gave birth to her. And I can’t stop smiling because I know I get to fill up whatever I missed. I get to be a mom all over again, that’s what grandmas do. J”

I love you Mom J

No Matter How Small...

2011-06-09T20:48:00.001-07:00

I don't know when this video was published. I don't even live in the US to start off, but regardless, I am a soon-to-be mom and the comments I've read in the thread of this video disturbed my whole being. I know I live in a country where the Catholic church have a say in these kinds of issues, be it a national dilemma or not. But where I pondered and tried to think rational and unbiased, the girl's last statement stuck into my thoughts. "Even though you can't see them or hear them at all, a person's a person... no matter how small."

So I stand firm. I know every woman have their individual rights and choices, and not all continents share the same ideals about whether a fetus is a child already or not. Everybody is entitled to their opinions. But if you are a woman, and you see that beating heart of that fetus as early as 7weeks, no matter how wanted or unwanted the pregnancy is, you'll know that the word fetus is only a name, and you'll feel it in your bones that abortion is not a choice, it is if you don't have that thing we call HEART.

Hi There!

2011-06-09T19:21:00.000-07:00

Tuhmaaahhh! (prolonged aaah) LOL!

I am officially a couch potato. School started for Jaezelle, Dad's doing his final touches to our new house in Sorsogon, and Mum started her new term as the grade school principal at Donsol, Pilar, Sorsogon (where I'll be sneaking in one of these days with my aunt to watch the whale sharks and see who looks better, my bulging baby bump, or them..haha!). I am dang bored. And at this very moment I dunno what else to write in here.

(sigh)

And someone just PM'ed me in Facebook!

-END-

I WANT :)

2011-05-31T21:36:00.000-07:00

Babe :)

2011-05-25T02:19:00.000-07:00

Finally...

YOU and ME :)

And we will soon meet... I just can't wait.

Hang in there and hold on tight.

Mommy loves you sooo much.

Baby.

Fashionista Nurse

2011-01-18T16:35:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I just got home after a 9-hour graveyard shift not to mention, a very tedious one. The queue of calls was so overwhelming that I felt so drained and exhausted. So I cooked breakfast, cleaned the house a bit and was finally about to hit the bed when... my neighbor's baby cried. Cried so loud that I almost wanna cry too! I peeked out the window to see what the fuss was about and saw Kim, the baby's aunt/nanny, trying to coo the baby so she would stop. Kim was looking so cool in her nanny outfit, she's actually a registered nurse. She's wearing this scrub hat which looked so cool so I asked (in case I decide to be a nanny too, lol). She said that she actually bought the scrubs online. Me, being the internet addict had to know that website, she said it's something called blueskyscrubs.com. Why wear a boring white discount scrub when you can be a fashionista with their designer nursing uniforms, right? So for all of my nursing friends out there, here's where to buy medical scrubs that will make you look fab! :)

Check them out HERE.

Ugh. Saturday

2010-12-04T08:25:00.000-08:00

Yeah, Saturday. I shouldn't be sighing and umph-ing because it's rest day and finally, it's time to just lie lazily around and go bum. But when you're all alone in the apartment? Ugh! I am beyond bored. I'd rather faint and wake up Monday already. I don't like this!!!

~Y~

Getting There

2010-11-30T01:04:00.000-08:00

Today was quite ordinary. I got home from work at around 6:30AM, checked my email in-boxes and Facebook and chatted for a bit with KY (Kentucky?) ha ha! At 8:30AM, I finally dozed off, sweet dreams. Then by 2:30PM, I woke up because I had to call the Laundry Shop for my clothes to be delivered, I then got up and paid the bills, the rent, the water (obligations..*sigh*) Finally, I had the urge to grab something to eat because of a rumbling tummy. I had "Pork Adobo" and "Sinigang" for lunch but boy I got sooo full after only a few spoonfulls. Why? I don't know. I barely ate last night at the office yet I feel like my stomach is gonna explode if I shove another grain of rice into my mouth. Oh for dieting's sake, bring it on! :)

I'm also proud that my blogging skills are gettin' back and sharp again. An excerpt from my email to Bessy "I suddenly missed writing. Yeah, I missed the excitement, the sensible thoughts that run into my mind every now and then, the freedom to just put into words what I really feel." And THAT, is so true. So expect more happenings and updates from such-a-cutie in the following days!

And oh, come January 2011, I will be having a beach get-away with friends at Calaguas, Camarines Norte! Gosh I am so excited! Lol! :) Look!

I am positively looking forward to a bright, happy, lucky and fruitful 2011!

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone! :))

Lotsa Love,

~Y~

Request

2010-11-29T00:12:00.001-08:00

Can somebody help me out here? Please click this link and register:

PAYBOX

it will only take a minute guys! :) and you'll have your own paybox too! :)

Please and thank you!

Pardon the... Slacker!

2010-11-27T21:47:00.000-08:00

Yeah, I know. I have been so torn with the idea of posting another blog entry, I feel as though I'd need a major major event to happen first before I can post anything in here. But of course there should be the updates, the pictures, the drama, the hate-posts, the current/daily musings and just about whatever happened for the past months. Alright, here goes...

May - Was my 24th birthday celebration. Yay for the cakes JM, Cha and Grace! :))

July - I got a tattoo! Actually, two. :)

August - I moved to a new apartment, much quieter, more peace of mind.. Haha

September/October - Was out and about the whole city. Friends! And went home in Bicol to celebrate with my Dad's 50th birthday. :)

There, that's enough for now.. haha! Oh for November? Nothing much, except that I always, always get soo bored at home that I end up camwhoring til dawn. Lol :))

Mwuaahh!

~Y~

Other Half.

2010-11-19T16:45:00.001-08:00

Can you believe it's been half a year since I last touched this blog?

HALF A YEAR!

Seriously, I sigh and I whine and I almost cry whenever I visit this blogsite. I feel a scrape of myself fly away like dead leaves, this blog has been my absorber for the past 4 years. My enabler, my de-stresser. But I let 6 whole months pass without a shrug. The abandoned.

I feel terrible that I've ignored this blog for soo long that I almost feel guilty and sorry (as if an online page will grant forgiveness) Lol. :))

I will try bloggy. No promises. I will revive the writer in me.

~Y~

Galera, the second time around :)

2010-05-10T10:50:00.000-07:00

{sherwin, arra, ysh, cha, brandon }

This Guy.

2010-05-08T06:15:00.000-07:00

I have been trying, desperately scrambling for thoughts to put into this journal. It has been weeks. How can a million things happen in a month? Things that I never wanted, things that I never imagined to ever occur in my life. Things that I thought I could handle. Turned out I wasn't the superwoman I thought I was after all. :(

I met this guy. This guy whom I thought was just like those other "passers" in my life. Most importantly, from the very beginning, I knew this guy was meant to be short-lived and will just fade away, just like the others. I was so convinced of myself that I was/am molded as hard as a rock already, that this heart won't give-in no matter what. Just like in those other guys.

But I succumbed. I knew I changed from all those sh*ts that happened before, but my phrase "I'm meaner now" proved to be just another bitching. I bitched myself, damn this heart.

But who am I kidding? I am but another Cinderella...always ready to fall into ashes.

Because it's Hot

2010-04-21T03:56:00.000-07:00

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2010-04-08T19:22:00.000-07:00

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Easter Baby

2010-04-04T17:42:00.000-07:00

I just have to blog about this!

Yesterday, I went to Church with my cousin Jaezelle to hear the Easter Mass. The Church was jam-packed with people so we settled outside and sat on monoblock chairs under a tree, we can still see the ceremony upfront so we were okay just sitting there. Then this cutie little boy, about 9 months old I guess, kept on pushing one of the plastic chairs and his dad would pick him up and let him sit. He can barely walk. But as he sat there with his dad holding him, just in time when the priest was blessing everyone for Easter's essence, he clasped his chubby little hands together and looked up, smiling. He looked so adorable and I just wasn't able to resist taking a picture of him :) He looked like he was praying, all the innocence in his face radiated and the people were staring at him, all smiling. Oh that kid was such a joy :)

Look:

New Blog Dress!!

2010-04-01T17:19:00.000-07:00

Yay!! After 6 hours of editing, HTML's and Photoshop madness, I'm finally done with the new layout and template! :)

PROUD. This is pure talent you know. Hahaha, I know, I know it's not perfect yet. But then again, I am happy I made it all by myself and didn't just google it. :p

Because I am Bored

2010-04-01T11:53:00.000-07:00

I Just Snap :)

2010-04-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

I love editing photos.

Don't you think it's just simply amazing how one dull and totally superimposed photo can transform into something full of character and emotion? I am amazed. All the time :)

Here's my nephew Matt Jared :)

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and yours truly...

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See? I know you agree with me :)

Starting it Right

2010-03-27T18:40:00.000-07:00

I went to Church today after work. I had this need, no, obligation to fulfill and it kept screaming in my conscience. I have to pay my respect. I have to go home to Him, even for just a short time.

So I bought this pink "palaspas". A way of celebrating Palm Sunday for most of us Filipinos consist of these palm branches.

"Domingo de Ramos or Palm Sunday mass is the first mass of the Holy Week. It celebrates the entry of Jesus to Jerusalem. We’ve learned from the Bible that Jesus entered the town of Jerusalem on a donkey instead of on foot, and was acclaimed by crowds waving branches."

I feel that this is a way that God has led me into, for me to embrace the change that is to happen in my life. It has always been Him who feels my needs, who understands my pains and nurses my failures. And it is for Him that I humbly submit myself.

I know that I'm in the right path... :)

Because I can feel Him holding my hand...always. :)

Straight from Hell ;)

2010-03-22T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hope Full :)

2010-03-22T00:40:00.000-07:00

Say it again.

My bloground song says it for me, haha. What the hell is "bloground"? Geez Ysh. :)

So anyway, here I am ready to scatter some deets for y'all.Whatever happened to me in the past weeks had been all hell and all crap. And when I say hell, it’s really more than that (if there’s such a word).

I'm sick. A rare sickness that doctors call “idiopathic” which means that there's no definite cause, no definite cure, no ETA, no ETD. Whatever. I really don't wanna discuss it much because it makes me all piteous of myself again, and a scratch of my self-esteem is the last thing that I need right now.

On a lighter note, because of this sickness I got to go home in my hometown. Yay! I stayed in Bicol for 12 days and aside from the hospital-house route, I got to see my old friends from grade school :) The downfall is, I cannot drink alcohol anymore, well I still can probably consume 1-2 bottles but more than that? Na-uh. I'd rather not risk having those hideous red rashes all over my legs again. :(

Now I'm back in Manila. Here in my very own crib, all alone. But at least I have a T.V now, and an Internet connection (thank the gods!) and a DVD player (weee) and I still have my job! :p I should be thankful, right?

As for my love life. Oh I'm feeling it. I am getting there :)

When He Called.

2010-03-02T19:13:00.000-08:00

I was heartbroken 2 weeks ago.

So heartbroken that I even slumped in the corner of my dark room, all teary and miserable. I slumped there for hours, staring at nothingness, looking like a freaking vampire.

I never thought that that scenario is even possible. I thought it only happens in movies where the damsel-in-distress who's all too stressed and depressed die of a heartbreak.

What a loser. Oh yeah, now I am too. Blah.

But 2 days ago...

He called.

HE called.

I shouted on Facebook:

"He called me. He called ME. Why would he CALL me? WHY?!"

You see? There was excitement in that post. I did see that.

Now I ask myself WHY.

tsk.

Post Secrets

2010-02-20T21:41:00.000-08:00

{sigh}

My Sentiments Exactly

2010-02-19T22:56:00.000-08:00

Miss Fortune

2010-02-19T22:42:00.000-08:00

"You've got needs, too! Your friends and family often rely on you for taking care of them in various ways, but today is all about you -- so do whatever feels right and let them fend for themselves."

This was my horoscope reading yesterday.

I never believed in those kinds of crap, horoscopes and fortune-telling and zodiacs and blah blah... But sometimes, it's entertaining enough that I spare some space in my Facebook Wall everyday just to have my daily readings.

AND this one hit it in the sack. JACKPOT.

{Super true.}

I just hope whoever it is that decides on what readings to disseminate to the world also knows how make them come true. Sadly, it's for everyone's eyes only.

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[sidetrack]

I think I'm losing a friend. I hope to the deepest of my heart not.

BUT she shows no compassion, nor care. Very unlikely of her since she's always been one of the most natural when it comes to tender loving care. Well, I am gonna let this slide, I have my own pain to nurse. And to top it all, I am ALONE.

But I miss her. I hope she knows in her heart how much I love and treasure her.

I can only hope :)

I've to sleep now, work waits and lurks after dark. ha ha. *roll eyes*

AJA!!!

This is MY Now

2010-02-17T17:54:00.000-08:00

I'm finally settled.

Last February 15, 2010, I officially moved out of Cityland and settled my butt here in my new home. I won't tell you where, but I'm just somewhere in Pasig. :)

The place is super nice, the rent is super cheap, the owners are super kind.

I guess God really loves me after all, on the last minute, He guided me and led me to this place. It's safe here and I feel at home despite of the "solitude" :)

Thank you Lord.

Someone

2010-02-13T21:36:00.000-08:00

I'm moving out.

No grudges or whatsoever, but I feel so blue. I feel so different. She has helped me in so many ways, she was there in my lowest hours, she provided things that I never asked for. BUT. If you feel that she's not herself when with you anymore, if you're starting to breathe in the coldness that emits in her. What do you do?

Don't get me wrong here. I'm not a lesbian talking about my live-in partner. She's a friend. My best friend, my sister in so many ways.

I am just so clueless as to why she's acting this way. I know that someone has been dictating things to her, someone so close to her heart that even our friendship is not enough to stand in between. I understand.

But why let things end this way?

I have been trying my very best to think rational and act wise.

I love her.

BUT sometimes, she has to know that I'm not JUST there for her errands and favors.

That I am her friend too.

"It gets tiring when you're always the one who gives comfort to other people, they don't understand that you need the same someone too."

Promise.

2010-02-11T19:45:00.000-08:00

I have a yearning that I've been keeping to myself for quite a while now. I don't understand why it burns in me, but somehow I feel a blazing desire to fulfill the yearning that my heart and mind is craving. I have never thought of anything like it in my whole life, I mean, that's exaggeration because yes I sometimes have, but not to the extent that I feel sore. My body longs for the existence of something warm and gentle, something that can make me whole.

Something. Someone that can make my life complete.

But I live with my virtues. Sometime in the past, I have battered myself and abused my soul to the deepest until I wasn't able to feel anymore. I had my fair share of mistakes, mistakes that I never want to commit again. But who am I to implement something when I know that I am but a weak human being? I can only hope.

Then again, apart from hoping, I wish. I wish with all my heart that someday or sooner, I will feel the soft and sweet breath of the person who can complete my existence in this world. That someday, I will touch the warm smoothness of him/her.

Soon enough, this overflowing love inside my heart, this love that has been swelling and thumping in my cradle will meet its owner.

One day, I will feel you in my arms love.

One day, I will give my all to have you.

Help me.

Help my yearning to meet you.

Find me.

Because I'll be waiting.

My baby.

My sweet, sweet child.

Yes Y, it's V again.

2010-02-10T19:15:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! :)

There, there. You might think I'm overly enthusiastic about V-day, you might think I'm one of those people who gives about a bigger deal out of that ordinary day. Seemingly, for me that is, Valentine's day is just another manic date of the year where people get all dramatic and cheesy. Do I sound bitter? No, because I have been bitter, cheesy and corny too. I have been.

Now I promise this won't be all about my bitching and lashing ;) I have been reading my previous posts since I started this blog and my, my, why is it that I was always miserable and unfortunate not to mention panicky on the wretched day?

Did cupid deliberately put me into his blacklist? Or am I just too cool to celebrate the so-called "heart's day"?

2010 is not an exception. How convenient is it to break up with your boyfriend before February 14? I said I didn't mind the day, but then again. It stings like hell.

Oh well. :) At least I'll live.

Tequila Anyone?

2010-02-06T23:33:00.000-08:00

Last wednesday, my friends from Panasonic and I went to Antipolo to get some fun-oh-fun, yeah we did! :) T'was a triple birthday celebration for my dear friend Cha and two of our boys Sherwin and Marvin. And the gang was there to get drunk and get wild. haha. I never was any good with tequila, damn damn tequila. I can gulp a pool of vodka no chaser at all, I can wash down bottles of brandy or whisky or rhum or champagne or of course beer and it will take a lot of tick-tocks to get me swaying. But with three shots of tequila? I die.

But what could be worse than dying? I FORGET! I forget details of what I did or of what happened the night before, I always wear an award-winning shocked face when I get to see the pictures and the evidences of my unfortunately unfair crime. And oh I die again. I just die.

I can hate it all I want, but I cannot yield. So there's always a next time for me :p Lucky enough I have wonderful friends who never, never dare to do evil things on me.

Oh I would loove to see them try. Haha :)

Oh here's where the amnesia strikes. What were we doing Vhan? Hahaha

Anyhow, I still had a wicked night! :p

Broken

2010-02-04T23:55:00.000-08:00

Break me... More until I'm numb.

When She Cries

2010-02-04T19:05:00.000-08:00

Are we friends? Are we lovers?

Is it over now…

When your heart breaks in silence, you feel the stronger pain. A pain no physical injury can contest, a pain that strokes every vein of your body, a pain that no medicine can cure… but only your tears.

So I cried. I cried and cried, hoping the pain would subside, wishing with all my heart that I would come clean and full again. With the shooting temperature, with all the dizziness and shakiness as my fever embraced me whole, I risked my barriers. For the first time, I crumbled and let myself succumb.

In the romantic era, nineteenth century novels, and those old school plays and movies, the girl dies of heartbreak. LITERALLY. She just can't take it that the love of her life left her and hurt her. She gets grief-stricken that she submits in depression and sooner or later, a maid will find her all cold and dead, with tears spilled on her pillows. I wish I can just do that, but to oppress myself with suicidal attempts is a stupid idea, and idiotic too.

I read once in a book that those situations are what you call “conventions”. Those conventions are things that we accept wholeheartedly when they happen in books or movies even though they never happen in real life.

But when my supposed boyfriend started flicking through numbers of his exes again, it occurred to me that maybe dying of a broken heart might not be a convention at all. If anything can make death a truly desirable option, it is when the love of your life starts choosing his ex over you.

What am I thinking? Get over it and let it pass. How can I digest what my friends are advising me when all I can think of is “I'll never see him again”. It echoes through my being, it rips me apart. And again I cry, I cry so hard.

Can anyone tell me…

Why do I feel like I’m dead?

Give and Take

2010-02-02T18:45:00.000-08:00

It takes a man and a woman...

One special moment, to know they're in heaven.

Why does it always have to be the woman to give? Why does it always have to be the man to take? Where's equality in this world? Where?

Knock Knock!

2010-01-28T20:35:00.001-08:00

Who the hell is there???

Hahaha. Let's start this off with a laugh, I mean, I so thought I have been awarded with the most coveted "peace and quiet" that whenever some mean person passes by, I just give it a shrug and flip my hair in the opposite direction.

I never thought that my precious peace would be once again shattered by some average girl who's so vain (much more than me!) and so narcissistic that I almost shuddered in annoyance. Damn. How can one person be a bitch, a liar, a feeler, and hypocrite all at the same time? or in one package that is. Not to mention her face looks like Aladdin's lamp and puhleeeze, lose the orange vest, it make you look more like a rotten pumpkin. Ugh.

To you Miss Easy, get a life okay?

Do it now while I'm still being NICE! ;)

CalendarYsh

2010-01-26T21:32:00.000-08:00

Yo!

So I guess I'm back. Happy new year to all! Yeah I know it's uber late but then again, at least... right? So I'm back to work and I had the most wonderful vacation last December. I went home to Mum and Dad and celebrated the holidays with them and the rest of Bicolandia. :D

So how was my 2009?

Average. Not my year I must say, but hell fun! Hmm, let's see if I can do a mindblog recap:

January - Went home bicol with Tamz for Dinapa's Barrio Fiesta. Went dancing with friends at the basketball court-turned-dance floor..haha

February - Spent the bloody V-day alone. Went to Subic :)

March - Went to Iloilo, Guimaras for some beach'in! Was with Yang, Ryan and Ayries.

April - Went home bicol again for Mum's bday! Just in time for the Magayon Festival, not to mention the Beer Plaza at Peñaranda Park! :p

May - My birth month! Celebrated my bday with Jen, Kenji, Miles and Nikka. Team Achieva also had a team building at Loreland Resort, Antipolo.

June - Oh well, this month sucked big time. I had to resign from Convergys, had to move out and had to bitch out with some people who I genuinely thought was true to me.:( On the brighter side, there were a few good ones left. Miles let me stay in her place, and here I am till now. :)

July - What ever happened in July? Oh, Tamz lived with us for almost a month. She escaped the hell that she's toiled for over a year, good thing we knew better than to stay in Geraldine's house. That troll doesn't deserve our compassion anyway. :p The pic was when we visited my aunt and cousins in Parañaque.

August - Lawrence, Jonas and Tamz' bday. I guess I was just out and about the city, night-outs with girlfriends and chillin' at home.

September - Bicol again! :D Had a two-week vacation, bonding with H.S friends. Yuan's christening, and tambay-mode at John's place.hehe

October - Back to business, job-hunting and soul-searching? Haha.

November - And I'm back! To work, that is. Met new friends, missed gimmicks after dark, but love oh love has come my way! (again..) :p

December - The happiest! Was with Mum and Dad, my neighborhood friends, my long-time high school friends, my relatives and my dogs! :)

Been A While

2010-01-22T22:37:00.000-08:00

It has been some time now since I last posted. A lot of events has happened and I was such a lazybug to even scribble here.

Whatever happened? I don't know.

I still don't know.

Help?

The communist reflects!

2009-12-06T09:26:00.000-08:00

The communist reflects!

Philippines' Deadliest Massacre Tests Government

2009-11-24T19:44:00.000-08:00

AMPATUAN, Philippines – A few miles off the main highway, on a remote hilltop covered with waist-high grass, bodies lay with twisted hands reaching in the air. They had been shot point-blank.

Nearby, bodies were being laid out under banana leaves Tuesday as police — their faces covered against the stench — unearthed a mass grave containing 22 victims from Monday's ambush on an election caravan. The discovery brought the death toll to 46 — an unprecedented act of violence at the outset of the country's election season.

As many as five people remained unaccounted for.

President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo declared a state of emergency in Maguindanao and a neighboring southern province, sending extra troops and police to try to impose the rule of law.

"No effort will be spared to bring justice to the victims and hold the perpetrators accountable to the full limit of the law," she said.

Few think she will be successful in the impoverished, lawless region that has been outside the central government's reach for generations, and where warlords backed by private armies go by their own rules.

Authorities said the victims included at least 13 Filipino journalists from regional newspapers, TV and radio stations who were accompanying family members and supporters of a gubernatorial candidate out to file his nomination papers for May 2010 elections.

Noynoy Espina, vice chairman of the National Union of Journalists of the Philippines, said as many as 20 journalists may have been in the convoy, based on reports from union chapters in the area.

The figures could not be immediately reconciled, but still the deaths marked "the largest single massacre of journalists ever," according to Paris-based Reporters Without Borders.

Dozens of gunmen intercepted the caravan as it traveled on a two-lane highway that cuts across vast open tracts of land and banana groves, police said. They took some of the people to the grassy area, where the killings started.

Authorities found 24 bullet-riddled bodies sprawled on the ground next to five abandoned vehicles.

Police, aided by a backhoe, worked most of Tuesday to extricate the bodies from the mass grave. All had been shot multiple times and were dumped on top of one another. One was a pregnant woman.

Grieving relatives helped identify their loved ones before they were given the bodies, covered by banana leaves, for burial.

The gubernatorial candidate, Ismael Mangudadatu, was not in the convoy because he had received death threats. He accused a powerful political rival from the Amputuan clan of carrying out the killings.

Mangudadatu's wife, Genalyn, and his two sisters, were among the dead, he said. In all, 21 women and 25 men died, said military spokesman Col. Jonathan Ponce.

Mangudadatu said four witnesses in his protection, whom he refused to identify, had told him the convoy was stopped by gunmen loyal to Andal Ampatuan Jr., a town mayor and rival, to prevent Mangudadatu's family from filing elections papers.

"It was really planned because they had already dug a huge hole (for the bodies)," Mangudadatu said.

He said there were reports from the area that the militia had been blocking the road for a few days.

The Ampatuans, who have ruled one of the nation's poorest regions since 2001, could not be reached for comment.

Arroyo's peace adviser Jesus Dureza said he met Tuesday with Andal Ampatuan, the family's patriarch, and received assurances that his family would cooperate in the investigation.

It was not clear how far Arroyo's administration would go in trying to force the provincial warlords to give up their weapons and private armies.

But Maguindanao's provincial police chief and three other officers were relieved of duty and confined to camp after they were reported to have been seen with the pro-government militiamen who stopped the convoy, police said.

Such militiamen are meant to act as an auxiliary force mobilized by the police or military to fight rebels and criminals, but often they act as private enforcers of local warlords.

Much of the southern island of Mindanao, including Maguindanao province, used to be ruled by fiercely independent sultans who fought Spanish and American colonizers. The political dynasties of the Ampatuans and the Mangudadatus behave in a much similar way — ruling by force, unopposed in their turfs with little outside interference.

Julkipli Wadi, a professor of Islamic studies at the University of the Philippines, said he doubted the national government's resolve in trimming the powers of political dynasties like the Ampatuans because they deliver votes during elections.

"Because of the absence of viable political institutions, powerful men are taking over," he said. "Big political forces and personalities in the national government are sustaining the warlords, especially during election time, because they rely on big families for their votes."

By AARON FAVILA, Associated Press Writer

The Impossible Dream

2009-11-11T00:56:00.000-08:00

I must be dreaming.

I love just how about love makes me feel so in-love! :p

Somebody to Love

2009-10-15T10:10:00.000-07:00

For A Good Cause

2009-10-14T07:02:00.000-07:00

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Please Rate

2009-10-13T00:48:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps! Please check out my sissy's entries at www.mtvemerge.com, here's the link! Please leave comments and ratings too. Thanks!

RUNNING ON SAND

http://www.mtvemerge.com/browse/view.php?key=1F67D5F1124C10B5

GOTTA GIVE UP SOMETIME

http://www.mtvemerge.com/browse/view.php?key=79C4E86EFD4273CE

I Love You Beth Cooper

2009-10-12T03:58:00.000-07:00

Watched it last night and wooohoooo I can't define entertaining enough! :) I love Hayden Panettiere!

Broken Life

2009-10-12T00:43:00.000-07:00

BROKEN LIFE by Ysh

2004

On the deepening leaf of my barren life,

I surrendered my last recourse.

With your parting sweat, I fed my sigh.

And the splitting voices ran through the walls.

I sentenced my judgment to amend with yours.

With the rushing breathes and aching glances,

You succeeded, but you bled with my soul.

Fluttering with my body you rejoiced,

Yet claiming my heart, you failed to blow.

On the blossoming femininity you cried,

With the flaming fire of lust you smiled.

I battled my empty buttons and strived,

Yes, you captured the skeleton of my life,

But not the creed of my feeding heart,

Through the bliss you shouted with glee,

You pictured satisfaction and greed.

Now my life is boating through the wire,

Lighting with your endless selfish grace,

I’ve had enough of your cruel sheets,

As I lay in your arms with a broken life,

Rest assured, my heart was kept living…

Not in yours…

Touched

2009-10-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

...

2009-10-11T03:56:00.000-07:00

TONIGHT

2009-10-11T00:59:00.000-07:00

TONIGHT by Ysh

2005

Fighting through the scenic views of the night,

My lips parted his sweet tongue.

I whispered thoughts of passionate grief,

As his body scented my naked sweat.

Filching the bliss, I glistened with pride,

But my tender wonders stroked his sanity.

Romancing the darkness brought me dread,

His moistened torso defies my strength.

Resistance and struggle defeated my scope,

Through the pressure I glided with ease.

His seductive eyes positioned my best,

As the performance leveled to the sky.

Surrendering, I placed my bet,

As he flew me off my credo, I know I’ll void.

Pleasure after pleasure, we scattered desire,

And lifting the passion, he lived the night.

I relinquished the whiff off his delicate lips,

Then giving a sigh he thrived.

The hurt at once drove to an ease,

As my heartbeat flustered his chest.

I dreamed with the hurtling of my core,

And I felt the betrayal of my soul.

Soon enough, I pictured the lingered ambiance,

I’ll never get over the mist of tonight.

The Naked Truth

2009-10-08T11:07:00.000-07:00

For over a year of being single, not to mention celibate, I have realized so many things about relationships and sex. Okay, so maybe embracing celibacy was an exaggeration, because every time I see a human male even tenuously attractive and over the age of twenty, I start to dribble and engage in a battle with my very own willpower. But, really I had sworn off dating men. Haha.

I needed to concentrate my energies on the F word. FOCUS.

Exactly one year ago, I broke ties with the man whom I fell in-love and sworn promises with. I had my own reasons and I may have mentioned it here before that “Falling out of Love” really does exist. For months I have pondered if I was only making it a reason just so I can start the ball rolling with other men, but then again, this day proves that I have not cheated, lied, neither disgraced the once genuine relationship that we had.

For women, the word “tired” is like a make-up essential always ready to grab inside the bag. Once in our very happy relationship with our partners, we get tired. Some for reasons like a hot anorexic third-party, a behavior so negatively un-appealing, or just pure indifferences. But some get tired for no reason at all. Some just gets that premonition of the future and it settles in the brain, it shouts in the heart that this man, this man whom you are so in-love with is not your destined Mr. Right.

It is unfair, some may say. But this wretched boy-meets-girl and vice-versa is a never-ending puzzle and will always be intriguing. That is why we still engage in the same situation over and over again, even if we already know what’s waiting for us in the end. Women love the idea of being in-love. That, my friends is a fact.

So now that I have overused my brain for a year of contemplating and just trying to figure out the rules of the heart, I got tired. And I am ready to plunge myself into the proverbial pit of limbo- AGAIN. I can just shrug my shoulders and shout “what the hell!” as long as I get the loving that I soo need right now. And there goes the exaggeration of embracing celibacy straight to the trash, thank you very much. :)

“She was the unsettled hen who always fell for the wrong cock” – The Naked Truth

Gossip Quotes

2009-10-06T03:07:00.000-07:00

I LOVE Gossip Girl. I have been ranting bout that in my past posts so most of you know already how I'm dying for Chuck and Blair's love team, hehe. This is a doodle by the way (Oooh, we have broadband already! yey!)

Blair: Chuck, NYU is not the Upper East Side. They don't care about Constance, or social hierarchy. They don't care that I'm Blair Waldorf! It's over.

Chuck: How can you do this to me?
Blair: What are you talking about?

Chuck: I'm Chuck Bass. And I told you I love you. You're saying I'm easier to win over than a bunch of pseudo-intellectual homesick malcontents. You really insult me like that?

Blair: That's not how it is.

Chuck: It's exactly how it is. The next time you forget you're Blair Waldorf, remember I'm Chuck Bass. And I love you.

Korea's Prettiest

2009-10-06T02:49:00.000-07:00

Watched Full House, a korean drama and I fell so inlove with Han Ji-Eun (Song Hye Kyo)... hehehe. How can someone be sooo pretty? I know Full House was launched way back 2004 but no one's ever too late for DVD's, hehehe. I'm excited for the sequel!

Oh My Chuck!

2009-10-04T03:32:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! I'm back! I haven't posted any doodle for the past few weeks due to hectic schedule (a.k.a laziness) Hehehe. But then, by next week we'd have a broadband connection in our unit already so you'll hear more about moi in the coming months! Yey!

I have lots and lots to share to everyone but I just can't concentrate when inside a crowded internet shop like where I am now. Lots of kids and noisy tweenies, it gets irritating eh. Anyway, I dropped by the page of my favorite series Gossip Girl (can't be not updated), and saw this divinity stare at me, oh chuck you just get me every time. :p

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and add me in Facebook: ysh_deemplez@yahoo.com

Note: I only add those who I personally know. :)

Maarte.

2009-09-26T04:23:00.000-07:00

Say Thanks

2009-09-17T02:40:00.000-07:00

I am so much thankful to the Lord for he has given me much more beyond my needs and wants.

Despite the struggles that I’ve been struggling with, even with all the hardships that make my life so hard, I am grateful that God constantly holds my hand all the way.

I love you God. :)

No words required

2009-09-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

W.T.F?!?!

2009-08-25T03:48:00.000-07:00

Sissy's Site

2009-08-24T21:48:00.000-07:00

check out milespoblete.blogspot.com guys! :)

Miles Poblete - My bro as the photog..:)

2009-08-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

CHANNEL Peeps

2009-08-14T10:02:00.000-07:00

Tep: Cartoonist / Graphic Artist
Mel: Associate Editor
Viancz: News Editor
Petite: Editor-in-Chief
Ysh: Literary Editor

I'm in-love with CAKES!

2009-08-14T08:48:00.000-07:00

No dieting can ever disever my love for CAKES! :D

Read between the lines. hihihi

I hate DRAMA

2009-08-11T06:59:00.000-07:00

I don't wanna read so much drama these days... It ruins the atmosphere that surrounds me... "love, love has come my way..." :)

Now what?

2009-08-09T05:15:00.000-07:00

Really...How much waiting for that one true love can someone tolerate?

SMILES - ysh.miles

2009-08-09T03:47:00.001-07:00

Tweet Tweet!

2009-08-08T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, follow me on Twitter! - search for yshsalle :)

Again I'm at Bo's Coffee Club- usual hang out here in Rob. :)

Now reading:

Baby!!!

2009-08-06T00:23:00.000-07:00

I just found out that one of my "instant-friends" is having a baby (too!) Isn't that wonderful? Congratulations dear Yza! (see even our nicks are the same! haha) I hope you be a good mom! Mwah!

Girls Are Like Apples

2009-08-05T03:19:00.000-07:00

I just get sooo marshmallow-y when I read blogposts about lovers who survives after stormy ordeals in their relationship (a.k.a Saulkrisna) My heart melts every time I get to read the pure sincerity and innocence of their so-called partnership. It got me thinking, at least they made it, they bravely rushed through the hardships and gave it a damn one more chance. I know I didn't, but that is all because I didn't have a courageous and brave enough boyfriend who will fight for me and woo me against all odds. That's sad you know, but what the hell- I am living. :)

So for you dear Saul (I really dunno what your real name is..sorry), I want you to always remember that She is worth fighting for, She is worth dying for, but most of all... She is worth living for. So be strong, and be patient all the time.

And for all of you guys out there... remember:

So be very brave. :)

Now reading...

2009-08-05T02:53:00.000-07:00

I so love reading. Thanks to Chick Lits of ipmart for the sources! :D

LazYsh

2009-08-05T02:41:00.000-07:00

“The hot ones are always gay, married, or murderers.”

So true... tsk.

I'll just obsess to my caramel frap over that very devastating thought...or fact. Tsk.

:)

Dark Eyes

2009-08-03T04:14:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, in darkness and insularity, people face their point of realization. Then in times of bliss and comfort, all they see are blinded judgments and unclear waters. This may be life’s way of making people see beyond what’s there. Beneath the sea of dreams there might lay a dark corner of failures, behind the mountains of misery might be an island of pure joy and happiness. The world is a huge maze of mystery for most. Some see it as a land of struggles and fears whilst some view their surroundings with utmost enthusiasm and hope for an ever constant changing life. I see it as it is. A provider.

When people are born, they come with such lucid eyes that make just everything so gentle for them. Yet when people grow up, those eyes get trapped in a misty blanket that most often leads them to blindness. If people can only look beyond the darkness, if only a few minutes are spared and they would look deeper, they might see the light. I know that this is a little vague for you my readers but then, it makes me wonder and realize at the same time that the eyes is the only hope that we have right now in this crazy world. As I write in the middle of the night where I can’t see anything but the light of the screen of my computer, I thought about one thing. What if the lights come off? Will I ever get to finish whatever I started? And I looked around. I tried so hard to look beyond the darkness. Little by little my eyes saw, and something flickered inside of me. HOPE.

“If you look deep and hard, you will see. In life, you’ll reap what you sow… so never get tired of looking what you want in life, use your eyes, use it well.”- Ysh.:)

And She's Back

2009-07-30T23:37:00.000-07:00

Sup people?I’m back! Harhar. I’ve been running out of ink and paper lately as well as that inspiration juices us writers call. But nonetheless, I have been out and about the suburbs and urban areas of the metro and I was at raves and parteeeys with friends :p I am still at the crossroads though, I have the direction towards new life yet I prefer to not move a step at the moment. It doesn’t feel right, yet. So wink with me as I go with the drift. :)

It’s officially the time of my life, I mean I just turned 23 and fate has this way of making the world rock and roll, that is, on my side of verve. I guess I now understand how aging comes with new toys and that spicy feeling every time it gets stashed in your way. Love it or hate it, it still stings damn good!

So keep me from falling dear providence, my heart’s crippled by the pain that I keep on closing, so never cut me open again. :D

Now as for this little piece of throbbing heart, it’s hangin’ on and still grippin’ tight. Why would I neither settle for less nor rebuke my own judgments when I can in time have all the love in the world? Right? I say Long Live Singles for that! Hahaha. No seriously, I am happy and I am contented in my life right now. I don’t need a chap who will again give me the thorny roads to step on. In time I will go and hunt them myself but now na-uh to rushing.

Anyway, I’m writing a book right now and it’s getting pretty well on the chapters. It’s calledELLE. I won’t give any deet as for now but in time I might publish it here in my blog.:)

And for those who missed me... Free stare..haha.. I missed you too. :)

Hey Feature Ed!

2009-07-10T01:33:00.001-07:00

Mae, Vnx and Moi
Us Girls
Ysh, Mae, Melai, Vianca

To Mae, who's flying to Canada tomorrow---GO GET EM ALL! hahaha. Will miss you. Mwah!

IMAGINE.

2009-07-10T00:53:00.000-07:00

IMAGINE. I was always a dreamer. I used to get lost in my own made-up world. I stare blank outside country lanes while inside a bus, imagining my dream house, the things I don’t have and what I so want to have. I think of my prince charming waiting for me on the most amazing places I can imagine. I believed that I was a princess and I can have anything and get to keep them forever. It kept me strong you know, it kept my hopes up, it heals me when I’m in pain, it satisfies me in all ways, it has always been my own secret garden. But it’s just all inside my mind.

I yearned for everything sugar and spice and just about everything nice. I was optimistic and I think of the world as a big bright colorful patch blanket. I used to see things with utmost enthusiasm that sometimes I can’t contain the hopes and the dreams that I carry around with me. I remember the days I spent with my best friends under a mango tree we called ours. We would climb and name each of the branches, one for each of us to sit and own. The river at the back of our house would serve as our pool and a heat quencher in the hottest days of summer, I would squeal whenever I see my playmates catch a fish or a shrimp, I would laugh till my lungs hurt on our story telling and gossip times and I would always be the mediator when two of them brawl with each other. I was so happy.

My eyes then, they reflected so many dreams and I would, if only I could…I would exchange this life for a rewind of the tape. But a person grow and leaves things behind, sometimes it just slips out of their minds like a bad dream. And now I know, after all the misery, the broken hearts, the disappointments…

Stupid girl, I should’ve known, I should have known…

“That I’m not a princess, this ain’t a fairytale, I’m not the one you sweep off your feet, lead her up the stairwell, this isn’t Hollywood, this is a small town, I was a dreamer before you had let me down now it’s too late for you and your white horse to come around.”

But this princess has suffered the consequences and was drawn away from her dreamland. Now it’s all black and white. Now it’s all reality. And with all the distress, I have to face the truth that I FORGOT. I forgot to imagine, I forgot that I’ve always had that place inside of me where I can run to whenever I’m hurt. I know, I lost my secret garden.

“Until you lose the one you wanted coz you’ve taken it for granted and everything you had got destroyed…”

If only I could… like what Melinda of Ghost Whisperer got, “a second shot at your one true love”, but when I come to think of it, have I even met my one true love?

If only I could… like what Gossip Girl said,“the only way to get over someone is to get another someone”, but why does that logic never apply to me?

If only I could… like Shakespeare’s quote, “All’s well that ends well” but sometimes, sometimes it just ends.

I made up my own phrase, quote, line, passage, whatever you call it when I compiled my stories and poems into a book I guess five or six years ago. Funny coz I wrote “Life is a crystal in everyone’s palm, if you hold it tight it might break, but if you hold it loose, it might fall down”. Now I truly believe that some people “eat their own words”.

“You’re hot and you’re cold, you’re yes then you’re no, you’re in then you’re out, you’re up and you’re down, you’re wrong when it’s right, it’s black and it’s white…”

See? IMAGINE my CONFUSION.

I Said I Like Pictures :p

2009-07-09T06:38:00.000-07:00

call me names, I'm just one narcissistic bitch. LOL. I know, right? :)

Postsecrets again

2009-07-04T20:25:00.000-07:00

"being there with you did..." who? where? when?

I can't remember just how it feels anymore.I don't know what it's like to feel. That's not good right? Seeing this photo and just knowing that the person who sent this feels the same way gives me a little bit of a consolation. At least I'm not alone.

And yes so I'll leave it all to fate.

photos from postsecret.com

R-E-C-E-N-T

2009-07-04T04:39:00.001-07:00

just ysh, ysh, ysh...:)

Caught on Quotes #2

2009-07-04T00:28:00.000-07:00

"The past is always with us... Just waiting to mess with the present."

Post Father's Day Secret

2009-06-27T01:11:00.000-07:00

Bumped into this at postsecrets.com and I kinda smiled-slash-laughed. Figure it out! Hahaha...I can almost hear you sing dad "of all the girls I've loved before..." :D

Even though sometimes you can be such a pain in the ass, I love you.

And yes, you're dang good at keeping secrets! Just don't ever hurt mom or you're effin dead. (hear the angst there in my voice? hahaha...lol..:p)

Happy Dad's Day

Caught on Quotes #1

2009-06-18T01:58:00.000-07:00

"The problem with fairytales is that they set a girl up for disappointment. In real life the prince goes off with the wrong princess. Or the spell wears off and two lovers realize, they're better of as whatever they are. But I'll confess, every once in a while a girl craves her fairytale ending."

Hear that girlfriends. :)

Doodles again

2009-06-18T01:46:00.000-07:00

UPDATES!

> Went bar hopping with Miles and Aya (Cuisine at the Fort and Tabu)
> I officially live in Ortigas now! Yey!
> Dinner at Eastwood with Miles and Jonas, got my things in Fairview, organized everything and voila! I'm home and stable.
> Chatted with my ex thru an online game, blabbers...bla bla..ugh
> Will go back to work on monday! Sad, sad.
> A lot of companies has been calling me like mad. Yeah yeah, fine. Interview with them tomorrow and on saturday. :)
> Need more money! Hahaha

Are You Not My Sissy?

2009-06-17T11:53:00.001-07:00

"Sometimes, a B.F.F makes you wanna go W.T.F but without them, we'd all be a little less richer in our lives."

When life spits out another tragedy, no one will find you-- most of them, they run. Only a few rare souls come running to your side, smiles at you and at the same time...drops a tear for you. That is why this post is sincerely for my best friends, the only entities within this universe whom I consider "my sisters"

I have changed, my life had come rumbling down in a span of nano-seconds. My mind and my heart had absorbed so much emotion that I finally succumbed to my weaknesses. I am but a human being after all.

Regardless of my fallen situation, these people have proved to me that I am special and I am not alone. They embraced my flaws wholeheartedly and accepted me even though I’m not the same girl I used to be...

LALA:

My bestfriend since 14. She's my LISTENER. She shares my thoughts and hurts and listens without judgment. Love you La!

JENNY:

I met her 8 months ago. She is my SISTER SOUL. We share a lot of common things about each other and we know, we just know that we were meant to be friends, then and there. Right J?

MILES:

I must have known her forever. She is my SHOULDER TO LEAN ON. She amazes me every time she sings; she comforts me and always offers help whenever I needed one. She kept me warm…and sheltered me from harm. :) Naks! :D

YHE:

We’ve been friends for 5 years now. She is my PARTNER IN CRIME. My drinking buddy, the person I can run to any time. I wish she can feel it in her heart how I’m missing her so much.

KAKAI:

My cousin. She is my LITTLE SISTER. We grew up admiring each other, she always looks up to me and ever respects me as her own big sis. She keeps my secrets, well…most of them. Haha

GRACE:

The girl who changed my life at 13. She is my BREATHER. I can never find any other person in this world who can just empathize with every emotion I go through. She cries when I cry, she laughs when I laugh. She is my absorber and she always makes me feel at home.

My friends are the proof and the living story of my life, without them-LIFE will SUCK even more. I’d do just about anything for my girls, just as how they would for me.

And the bottom line is: I DON'T HAVE UGLY FRIENDS! Hahaha...:p

"Right now, I’m with exactly who I want to be with—my best friend. You are high school to me. All of the boyfriends and mean girls and tests and teachers and our crazy mothers, we learned through it together. We raised each other. You’re my sister.” –Serena Van Der Woodsen

BFF thru fat or thin..hahaha

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Meet my BFF and soon-to-be housemate MILES. :) Wala lng. Haha.

At Rockwell..bitchin' with the cam. ;p

At Rob Gale, movie day!

At the condo, just messin' around.haha

Metrowalk, since it's only 20 steps away from home.haha

Decades. Party like a rockstar!

After parading our a**es at Alabang Town Center.

There. Another post dedicated for you Milesy. :) Mwah! Love ya!

My First Award! :D

2009-06-12T22:13:00.001-07:00

Thanks for the AWARD gee! :)

Gosh, ELITE BLOGGER huh? Love it! :D

I pass it on to Yza's BroadwayGazette...:)

PCD Concert

2009-06-12T18:09:00.000-07:00

Watched the Pussycat Dolls Concert last June 11, 2009 with Au, Miles' sissy. :)

Fun! Fun!

The Gossip Girl We Love To Hate

2009-06-09T07:31:00.000-07:00

I love Leighton. Really.

I Love Romeo!

2009-06-09T05:21:00.000-07:00

No, not Romeo of Juliet,

not Romeo of Shakespeare.

Not Romeo who stupidly committed suicide.

(*peace shakes!*)

Tadaaa!

ROMEO the CAT!

I love this cat! Been following him at Twitter for a while and I just can't stop laughing at his tweets. (read: updates and posts)

Here's one:

Romeothecat: Wake up tactic: Lay on female staff's shoulder and nudge her neck with my little nose. My little wet nose.

Hahaha. Of course we all know that it's his owner and not really the cat who's typing and jotting em all but who cares? It's laughable. So much what I need at the moment.

Romeo's a pug looking kitty who just has to share his everyday life together with his buddy Pugsley. I swear their blog is a must-read. They have their own events and causes for raising money to save strays and rescue animals too. Great cats, great owners!

CHECK OUT ROMEO'S SITE HERE

Escape and Fly

2009-06-09T01:36:00.000-07:00

I want to travel!

You know what I really wish right now? To escape all this chaos and uncertainty in my life. I want to go to different places and just wander by myself. I want to go alone, without any companion to waste my time on attention. I just want to drive to the airport, close my eyes and point to a random location anywhere in this world! Haays, I want to unwind, to relax, to forget.

Hawaii!

I love hawaii! I want to go to hawaii! Ever since I watched Forgetting Sarah Marshall (of course despite the fact that I love Kristen Bell), I suddenly wanted to feel the sands and the tropical scenes of hawaii. I wish! I wish! (see even my blog header is hawaii-ish..haha)

Europe!!

The number one in my list has always been Europe; Rome, London, Venice, Milan, Italy, etc. As a writer I've always had this connection with art and serenity. As a hopeless romantic I have long wished to step my foot in the wonderful places of Europe and just trace the brick steps all around the city. I'd sit around the plaza and take pictures of everybody and keep them in my scrapbooks. When oh when?

Washington

Call me fanatic but I want to go to Forks, Washington (The location from the movie Twilight). Not because I'm in search of my prince vamp but the small town has captured me, the moss green surroundings and the small cottage homes makes me nostalgic as I also was raised in a small barrio that never ceased to rain. I love rain. And I love the peace and quiet. :)

Eeeiiii by the way check out the New Moon's trailer here!

Segway eh noh? haha. :)

Didn't Watch Anger Management.

2009-06-08T21:47:00.000-07:00

Coz I'm One Step Closer to the Edge and I'm About to BREAK!!!

-when you're not inspired, there's nothing to read-

Life is a BITCH!

~I know right~

Oh Don't Mind Her

2009-06-06T07:05:00.001-07:00

Just making faces.:)

From Postsecrets

2009-06-06T02:51:00.000-07:00

I am a postsecret stalker. There I admit it. Hehe. :)